So, we try to do a devotional together every night after we put the kids to bed. Last night's devotioal was about ways to support one another and the one part was saying how you should love each other unconditionally and let the little things go and not get frustraited easily with each other. So, I was telling Brad that one of my bad habbitts is wanting to make everyone else happy and not caring about how much pressure it puts on me until I've had enough and then whoever happens to be around is the one that I get angry with and lash out at. So, Brad says "well by the time I get home I think that you are all done trying to make other people happy and helping others out when you can" and i said "what is that supposed to mean" and he said "just that you get frustraited very easily with me and I sometimes have to fend for myself" and then I started to cry and he felt bad. I've been thinking about it all day and I know he is right he comes home and I want to be done. I don't want to do anymore anything, i normally make sure that dinner is done and he is fed but aside from that i want him to take care of the kids, clean up all of his dishes and give the kids a bath and read them their stories and get their milk cops and on and on. I don't stop to think that he has just been at work all day too, most of the time all I can think about is how he has had a break from the kids and house work all day now (in my mind)it is his turn to do it. I think that what I really want is a more equal distribution of labor at night so that one person isn't doing it all or most of it while the other one is playing with the kids all night or sitting down watching a movie with them and not even talking to me. I think I need to let him know that I understand where he is coming from and that I will try not to get frustraighted and mad at him and just ask him to do more. I'll let you know how it goes.
